What If...

What if…


What if we never met that day?
The day in preschool when you were my only friend
Guess I would be lonely

What if you hadn't given me that valentine?
The only one I received
Guess I wouldn't have known friendship or love

What if you weren't always there to protect me?
The bullying, teasing, all the hurtful things
Guess I would be in endless pain

What if you hadn't helped with schoolwork?
Math was a pain, Language arts too
Guess I would have been in summer school

What if you did join the popular crowd?
Those begging idiots wanted you so badly
Guess I would have had to find others, hopely

What if that time when we were drunk, we had sex
I tried to turn you on but you refused to hurt me
Guess you would have known how I felt

What if I begged you to stay with me that night
The night you died
Guess you would have lived a bit longer

What if I told you those 3 little words
I love you
Guess we would have had a chance at love at least

All those questions flashed through my head the moment I learned you died
Along with last, final question
Another What if question for you

What if I had killed myself too?
Any method of death works
Would you have waited for me?

That was the final question I whisper as I shoved that knife through my heart.